Sky Nabila

Sometimes, we feel that we can be out of control, sometimes, we can be outrageos or maybe sometimes we just want to be diplomacy.  If not because of respect or promised myself that I do not want to be in hateful environment, I might have just let myself burst out of respect. I do not understand why. If only I could understand why, I might not have to face or have this kind of feeling again.  I tried my best to be nice to everyone, but it's just not enough when you being yourself. Idid everything possible, to help out whichever I can, but I always get treated like "trash". I always get labelled as "this" and "that" after all that I've done. Is it not enough? I mean, why?  I have feelings, forgodsaken. Don't they think I have feelings at all? I feel hurt, burn from the inside. But I cannot express it out. I can't tell or talk cuz I am afraid it would make things worst.  Whatever they wanna say or label me, I am just gonna stay silent. I don...

Love. What is love to you guys? I believe we all have our very own interpretations of love. In this very post, I would like to talk about it. Do not worry, it won't be lengthy or boring, I hope. :) So, before I go further, I would like to clarify on the aspect that I would like to focus on, which is truly based on my experience. To be specific, the experience based on my past relationships. Everyone loves to be loved by someone, right? I do, for sure. How many times have you been in love? I am a very picky person, I choose who to love. I've been in a relationship three times, to be exact. All of the relationships I was into were a total failure and I think, I've wasted much of my time believing them to be the right one. I'm gonna focus on the third, who is a military officer. He's the only who had ever met my family. I introduced him to my family and my family gave me the green light. Long story short, the relationship didn't last. After all that happene...

Some people are very lucky to live their dreams earlier than expected, some people not. I guess I'm one of those who have to undergo series of trials before I can actually say I'm on a stable state. Here, I'm talking about my dream, or better say, my passion? My Mom has always been the biggest supporter for me to become a teacher. My Dad has never specified what he wanted me to be since I was a kid. Well, he was and is a very busy man. When I was young, I always dreamt of becoming a banker, or anything to do with numbers. Back when I was in primary school, I remember I told my teachers that I wanted to be a bank officer (pegawai bank). As I grew up learning, I found my interest in accountancy. Hence, when I was in secondary school, I wished to become an accountant. I always performed well for English paper during exams. My English teacher always said that I could be a good English teacher like him too. I said, I didn't want to become a teacher. I wanted to be an a...

I used to be blogging a lot back during my undergraduate years. Ever since graduation, I rarely update my blog anymore. And due to technology, mobile-friendly apps, I was no longer attached to a laptop like I used to. I always posted that I would make a new start, but never happened. Until a moment where I was thinking about putting all of my thoughts again into something beneficial or useful for anyone especially me, because sometimes I look back in the past for things I have done as part of my self-improvement. Opening back my old blog, but I did not have the feeling of continuing it. A lot of effort made in terms of customizing the layout, choice of blog names and many others. Everything turned out to be uninteresting. Maybe it is due to my old blog posts that I think I need to remove all of them so that I can make a fresh start. However, I do not think it is a good choice to make. I love to read back things I wrote in the past. I can see how I have improved in terms of writin...